Sometimes Elanore's affection for crash gets in the way of responsible sensible thinking and action. She will say otherwise but at the same time she'll tell me she's going straight on the stuff.
She gets a bit scattered sometimes and when we were talking I could hear it in her voice. She was going to make a run for some crash and seriously, I know she wasn't thinking clearly. She was very short with me but obviously looking for support at the same time. So when she un docked I knew she hadn't prepped well with the route or anything. It was doomed to be a suicide run from the start. And when she left she didn't take a body with an empty head either. So when it happened she lost a couple implants as well. She said it was because she didn't put them into the right body from the start. But when you are in some form of withdraws you'll do irrational things like that.
The 1st run ended much like I'd feared it would. She didn't take the precautionary trajectories into that last gate and ended up in a bubble to her own demise.
I think after dying and finding yourself in a new body you get a clear head for a while. Or at least it subdues any withdraw you might feel in your body for a while. Because she said she was going to sleep. and would try again later.
I didn't hear from her for a day. When she awoke it was the 1st thing I saw was a message from her that she was going to try the run again. she seemed to have a plan together this time with a better thought out route. And a Minmitar shuttle this time for a speedy attempt.
I watched but said little. There's no dissuading Elanore when her mind is set on something. No matter how often I try to talk with her about these things. So again, I said little and just asked if she'd taken measures to think out a plan.
She had
I do appreciate the way that Frammasch Durin stepped up and offered her the morale of support he did during her run. I seriously had to leave channel and couldn't bring myself to watch this time. I feel bad, but I just couldn't do it.
thank you again Frammasch.
Well the null Hi sec run went well with an additional 4 systems added to the route in an effort to avoid the previous outcome. And she kept changing gate trajectories too. It was a successful run into Airaken. Phase 1 of the run successful.
Next was to find the best deal on the crash boosters. That which would take her through a few hi and low sec systems to end up in a pretty sketchy low sec with a number of enemies and other scoundrels who do nothing but offer low prices in the hopes of luring someone there so they could kill them.
She made it all the way. bought as much of the stuff she could afford and undocked then jetted back to Airaken. phase 2 of the trip a success.
Then it was back to null. Selecting the same route in reverse but changing the planet hop trajectories she made a successful if not stressful run back to dock up at null home. Concord wanted her in Hi sec, the marmites and others tried to lock her in hi and low sec, reddies from all walks were trying to do the same in low and null. Bubbles were barely missed, especially one, but it was indeed a success :)
I am relieved.
Maybe this read may not seem real exciting, unless you've been there done that of course! But it was nerves on edge for both of us until it was over. And all I ask is that she JC's safely back to hi sec for a while because I sometimes need to see her physically standing there to know that everything is really ok.
I think my hands were probably shaking in fear for her as much as hers were shaking for that and other reasons as well.
But right now I feel relieved, happy, and I can smile :)
here's a couple outtakes from the chat channel during the run:
Elanore Wansmore > clone updated :)
Chris Goh > 12 jumps
Elanore Wansmore > 16 jumps my route
Frammasch Durin > good luck then :)
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Elanore Wansmore > putting plastic over the seat, plastic gloves on hands and takes helm in disgusting little ship. (FYI, Elanore hates Minmatar ships and finds them rusty, dirty, and disgusting :)
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Elanore Wansmore > sooo many reddies!
Chris Goh > where?
Elanore Wansmore > 1 sys back :)
Chris Goh > "back"....that is always good...lol
Chris Goh > remember...planet 6
Elanore Wansmore > ?
Elanore Wansmore > sys?
Chris Goh > bounce planet 6 at bwf-zz
Elanore Wansmore > not in my route
Chris Goh > i see
Chris Goh > that's where they got you the last time
Elanore Wansmore > not going thru there :p
Chris Goh > see you folks later....o/
Frammasch Durin > \o
Elanore Wansmore > what? 5 jumps to go u leave me!
Elanore Wansmore > omg reds everywhere!
Elanore Wansmore > bubbles!
Elanore Wansmore > missed them
Frammasch Durin > if a gate is bubbled, it's game over for your ship, right?
Frammasch Durin > if there are reds on the bubble
Elanore Wansmore > if someone is watching them
Frammasch Durin > isnt that pretty risky?
Elanore Wansmore > yes :)
Frammasch Durin > I'd have used a covops instead :D
Frammasch Durin > or a 'ceptor
Elanore Wansmore > chancing dif trajectories into the gate in hopes to avoid them
Frammasch Durin > ok, you seem to be doing fine so far *thumbs up*
Elanore Wansmore > F***kin A right made it docked up safe!!!!!!
Elanore Wansmore > home
Frammasch Durin > sweet!
Frammasch Durin > well done!
Elanore Wansmore > yay :)
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