a new degree of loss

I feel sick. I feel empty and I feel lost. Elanore is a drug I hav to have.
OMG Where are you please come back. I am so lost. You are a part of me and dammit there is something missing and I don't know why I care. You have caused me stress and great grief. You have cause others to hunt me and pass judgment on me for YOUR actions but I still need you and this is not fair! What did I DO!
I sit here harvesting an ice I don't care anything about. the only reason I DO THIS IS FOR YOU YOU ARE DENYING ME EVRYTHING BY DOING THIS. you need to be back here AND I DON'T CARE WHY YOU LEFT I CANNOT DO THIS ALONE!
there no one here. This icefield is empty in hi sec and there is 40 pilots in the system. This makes no sense. unless there are those like YOURSELF entertaining the thought of finding someone like me here. Alone an unprotected. a sitting duck but I don't care. You Hear me Ela Let them shoot me! Jus do it ok? Just throw it all away jus like you did before. and like u did before again. I am the rock here Ela but right now I don't feel that way I feel like I am betrayed and I feel like I don't care anymore.
So common gankers here I am jus do it ok!? jus do it!

I am stronger than this . I am

But I want you back.

~Vi