Thursday, October 30, 2014
Waiting....again.
I am having a hard time concentrating right now. And it seems like my luck is being tested some too. I think I am in a transitional state or something and seem very confused. Maybe I jus hav these thots while I wait for Vi to get here with the ship. idk I am not very happy right now and feel sort of empty. I am out of libations too an that does not help much at all.
Tomorrow is Vi's anniversary 5 years and I hav done nothing. And even on the eve of that I stand here watching and waiting for my ship to come in. Delivered by Vi to me. So I can go out and lose it again. it seems like a downward spiral.
Vi's day is tomorrow and I hav been a distraction from getting things ready too.
I hate these moods and I am not reelly sure why I get them. I need some brain candy.
arrrgh, I jus hate these moods. I want to smile.
Ela